Summer is Ending

O HAI WORLD :3

I haven't blogged in SO SO LONG! Not to mention, as of late my posts have been depressing and down. NO MORE :D The end of the year is closing in fast on us, and what better way to bring in the end of the year with some reflection and positive vibes!

 (GOODBYE NEGATIVE)

I am coming up to my final full month in San Antonio. I will be journeying to New Jersey via my car in October, exact date is not finalized yet. I couldn't be happier to be reunited with my family whom I think of 24-7!! Sure, I will miss San Antonio and the friends I have made here dearly, but I know I need to go home for now. My family needs me, and more importantly I NEED THEM. Now more then ever. 

I am trying to find out my purpose in this life, and need support I can only obtain by blood, my siblings and parents. I am super excited for what my future holds in store for me. Excited, anxious, nervous, stoked! I really am going to miss this place that I have called home for the past 4 years. I will never forget, and I promise I shall visit :D 

What else.... umm I have staggered a bit on my vegetarian lifestyle the past 2 weeks, but I am hopping back on, stronger then I ever have ! I am more determined and more motivated to achieve my goal to be healthy. I am, also, SO FREAKING ECSTATIC FOR FALL!!!! OMG PUMPKIN SPICE THIS AND HALLOWEEN THAT I CANNOT WAIT!!! okay let me calm down a little before I have a heart attack. I enjoy all the seasons of the year, but I enjoy fall and winter the most! I enjoy the change in weather : being able to layer clothes comfortably, hot cocoa, holidays and time with family, the atmosphere, SNOW. It is just such an amazing time of year, which I literally wait ALL YEAR for! (HA!)

(Pumpkin Spice Frapp :])

I cannot wait to settle in with my family, and adapt to being around them all the time. I had taken my family for granted before I decided to move out on my own and I promise not to do that again. I will do anything for them. I am excited for what the next 2 months hold for me, and cannot wait to arrive in New Jersey.

Stay Posted :3 

I love y'all,

Cassie

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Real Talk.

We all have known the ones who laugh the loudest are hurting the most. 

       Yesterday, we lost an amazing human being on Earth. Robin Williams. He is all everyone is talking about, as he should be. He was such an inspirational, hysterical, amazing man. Let me just say this before you read any further, NO, I am not applauding him committing suicide, but as one who suffers -- after you have fought and fought for soooo long, I guess he just did not have the will power or support to push forward anymore.
      I don't particularly know why this has affected me so dearly. Possibly because I have always been a fan of his work, or the fact that he reminds me of my own father, I am not sure. He really knew how to really pull you into the feelings his character feels. He always knew how to become his character and gave 10000% effort each time. He was so so funny, but I am just restating what we all already know.

      Throughout the day, I heard a lot of negativeness towards the death. "How could someone like him be so depressed", "how selfish", "he had everything he could want, why just throw it all away" etc. The fact is, yes, suicide is so selfish. He is leaving behind family, friends, fans; but none of us really know what his daily battle was. I do not ever expect an "average" person to understand this. No one should take their own life, it should always be God's timing, but who are we to judge a man who has been tormented his whole life by this depression. It really is a monster.
       A really good friend of mine posted this video on facebook, and it honestly never had been more clear then when this guy said these words. This video is for both the depressed and those who have friends or family that are depressed. I was so blessed to have such a loving, strong, supportive family through my life of struggling and being depressed. It is not that we choose to be this way...we just cannot help it. HERE is the link to the youtube video, seriously watch it. It is only 3 minutes long. 

      I will end my little ramble here, I am getting teary-eyed just looking back on it. My deepest condolences to his family. We all know he must have been amazing to know personally. I hope y'all have a great rest of the day. I am going to hop off the computer and go live my life surrounded by people whom I care about.

I love you all. so so much.
-Cassie